When she was still closeted, Ellen Page admits: ‘I felt awkward around gay people’

Oscar nominated actress had gotten to a point where she 'felt guilty for not being myself'

When she was still closeted, Ellen Page admits: ‘I felt awkward around gay people’
29 April 2014

Ellen Page, one of the stars of the upcoming X-Men: Days of Future Past, is promoting a new film for the first time as an out and proud lesbian.

It clearly is agreeing with her.

‘I feel more creatively inspired than I have in years,’ she tells Flare Magazine in its June issue. ‘And I’m sure it has to do with a lot of bricks being taken out of the backpack.’

‘I expected so much more hate,’ she adds. ‘It was just remarkably positive, which is beautiful, because it’s indicative of the change that’s happening.’

Now 27, Page had come out to her parents when she was 19. But she did not go public until Valentine’s Day earlier this year when she declared her sexuality at a Human Rights Campaign event in Las Vegas.

‘I was very nervous. I was very nervous, yes. Yes. Very, very nervous. Yes. I was emotional, deeply, deeply emotional.’ she says of the HRC event.

Looking back, she realizes she still had issues about being gay even after coming out to her parents and becoming a movie star with her Oscar nominated performance in Juno followed by such films as Inception, Whip It and to Rome With Love.

‘I think I still felt scared about people knowing,’ she admits. ‘I felt awkward around gay people; I felt guilty for not being myself.’

As her star continued to rise, she was advised not to go public. But there was something about being closeted that, in the end, just seemed unreasonable.

‘You hear things like, "People shouldn’t know about your life because you’re creating an illusion on-screen." But I don’t see other actresses going to great lengths to hide their heterosexuality. That’s an unfair double standard.’

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