In his latest video, popular gay YouTuber Riyadh Khalaf interviewed his parents about their reaction when they first came to know of his sexuality, and his father shockingly revealed that he had considered suicide because of it.
At the beginning of the emotional confession session, Khalaf explains that he’d expected different reactions from his parents because of their different upbringings — his mother, Lorraine, was raised Catholic in Dublin, Ireland, while his father, Sam, grew up in Iraq.
Lorraine first shares that she had suspected that Riyadh might be gay but never really probed him. Her ‘feelings’ finally got confirmed, by accident, when she was looking through his web history and found a ‘gay website.’
‘I just broke out into a cold sweat and I started to panic. And I just thought, “He is, he is, he is.” It was like a confirmation of the little thing in my head — that I thought he might be,’ she explains.
Lorraine then approached Riyadh and revealed that she knew his secret.
‘I said, “Riyadh, do you have something to say to me?… You know you can say anything to me. I love you, it doesn’t matter what,”‘ Lorraine shares. ‘And it was when you cried that I knew that I was right.’
As for Sam, he only found out nine months later, and Riyadh describes that during the period, he was growing more and more distant from his dad.
Lorraine had urged Riyadh to come out to his dad, but he wasn’t able to make himself say it. So instead, he pulled out a school book and wrote it down.
Sam says in the video that he had felt confused: ‘I read it and I was like, “Really? No, it can’t be.” It was just so confusing, because something just hits you like, bang! And you’ll be thinking of what to do…’
He then reveals that he was so distraught by the news that he considered killing himself:
‘I actually got up that night about 3 or 4 in the morning, and I was looking for tablets to commit suicide. It was so stupid.’
Riyadh immediately hugs his father as he breaks down, and tells him that he’s ‘the best dad in the f*cking world.’
Watch the very moving video here: