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Matrix director Lana Wachowski speaks of trans 'terror'

Filmmaker speaks for first time about being transgender and fear of being rejected by her family

Matrix director Lana Wachowski speaks of trans 'terror'

Lana Wachowski, famed for directing the Matrix series with brother Andy, has spoken out about being transgender for the first time, saying she was terrified about telling her family.

Formerly known as Larry, the filmmaker began transitioning in 2002 but appeared for the first time as a woman in a video promoting her new film Cloud Atlas in July.

The 47-year-old told the New Yorker that she suffered depression while making the Matrix movies and lived in fear of rejection.

‘For years, I couldn’t even say the words "transgendered" or "transsexual",’ she said.

‘When I began to admit it to myself, I knew I would eventually have to tell my parents and my brother and my sisters. This fact would inject such terror into me that I would not sleep for days.

‘I chose to change my exterior to bring it closer into alignment with my interior. My biggest fears were all about losing my family. Once they accepted me, everything else has been a piece of cake.’

Lana, who is currently married, says she is not willing to reveal details of whether she has undergone gender reassignment surgery.

‘I know that many people are dying to know if I have a surgically constructed vagina or not, but I prefer to keep this information between my wife and me.’

Based on the best-selling novel of the same name, Cloud Atlas tells the story of how the actions of individual lives impact one another in the past, present and future.

Its stars Tom Hanks and Halle Berry reportedly swap identities and gender in the film.

Watch the Cloud Atlas trailer below:

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