In one of Cakes Da Killa’s new tracks, he calls himself ‘the most clinically insane cunt bitch up in the game’.
This is apparently accurate, according to him.
Otherwise known as Rashard Bradshaw, this 23-year-old New York City rapper and artist is ambitious. So ambitious, he says, he’s going to take on the world.
His second mixtape, The Eulogy, was a massive hit. He’s been compared to acts like Lil’ Kim, Cam’ron and Mykki Blanco.
Already a massive hit in gay clubs and colleges around the US, he’s writing a new album and is going on tours in the UK and the rest of Europe.
We chatted to Cakes on the phone as he was getting ready to prepare to perform in London for the third time on 22 April.
GSN: When did you first start getting interested in rap?
Cakes: I think I was maybe, 20? As a recording artist, maybe 20. But I started rapping in high school.
What inspired you?
It wasn’t really anything that inspired me, it was just something I started doing out of boredom. It wasn’t a career before, it was something I wanted to do because it felt fun.
Is there anything that makes you want to write?
I don’t know what makes me want to write it, it’s just fun. You know how some kids like math, like they like to solve math problems? I just like to write really ratchet shit. That’s just my shit.
Can you give an example of a track that meant a lot to you when you were writing it?
They all kind of mean something because I write all my own music. I don’t know,…I really like Cold Winter. It’s a track that I put on my last project, I really like that song because that’s the latest song I wrote and it’s where I’m at right now. That’s my head space right now.
What is your head space?
I don’t know, I’m really excited about this year. I know I’m going to be doing a lot professionally and personally. I just feel like this is going to be the moment for me.
So you’re aiming for mainstream?
I don’t think I’m aiming for that, I just think it’s in the cards for me. This is going to be the year where I tap into that.
For people who haven’t heard your stuff before, how would you describe your sound?
It’s classic 90s aggressive New York hip hop but applied to dance music, basically.
Do you think there’s an attitude that there’s no gay music out there than what’s played in most of the bars?
I just feel like, everyone just tries to be really different. Right now, it’s cool to be really different. Gay people have always been ahead of the curve. With the internet, everyone’s always interested in new things.
Do you think the rap scene is more homophobic or less so than it has been in the past?
Well I don’t know because I do my own thing. I don’t know. I mean, I feel like there is a people bring that energy or drama to music. Country could be homophobic depending on the person, jazz can be homophobic depending on the person. I don’t think you can define a whole type of music.
Has it been homophobic to me? Has it made me feel like I wanted to end my career? No. I’ve felt a lot of love so far, so no, I don’t think it’s homophobic.
Why do you think there’s this attitude that the majority of rappers are homophobic?
I wouldn’t say it’s a majority of rappers are homophobic because I don’t know the majority of rappers, I just feel like in the community of color there is a stigma when it comes to sexuality. There is a lot of stigma in my race specifically, regarding things like sexuality, mental health, drugs, there are just certain things that are not open conversations.
How was it for you growing up?
It was fab, my mom even though she was young and she had me and raised me by myself, she worked. Even though she raised me by myself, it wasn’t like what you’re probably thinking of having a single mother. She worked, and she provided.
Was she accepting of you coming out?
I came out in third grade so I kind of didn’t give her a choice.
Wow. So what was it like being eight years old and out?
I don’t know coz I always knew I was gay, it wasn’t like… Basically I realised at a really young age that I only have one life, and you’re not going to stop me from living it. So she asked me and I just told her.
What was her reaction?
I feel like she was more unconfortable with the fact I was so young and I was aware of sexuality. It was like, ‘I need to call your father’. I didn’t get in trouble or anything, it was like, ok.
What was she like with boyfriends?
My mom is my best friend so she knows I’m crazy so she doesn’t mind. I don’t think there’s anything I can do that my mother wouldn’t be like, shocked, at this point because she knows me so well. She’s been so supportive.
I know you’re close, but do you tell her everything?
I’m pretty sure she knows I’m having sex, but it’s not like I’m telling her about the blowjob I gave the other day. My mom is still young, she still has sex too.
Do you go out with each other?
No, even though my mother is close to my age [she’s 36], she still acts older. So it’s not like me and my mom are going out to the clubs.
We share a glass of wine. I’ve realised now I’m older my mom is my best friend.
What did she think of your career?
She’s cool with it, my mom just doesn’t want me on drugs, or that I’m not putting myself in danger. She’s just like, handle your business.
I don’t think she worries. My mother knew when I was young it was not going to be atypical, she knew I wasn’t going to be a mailman. I think she laughs and goes, you’re committing to this.
What are you excited for people to hear in London?
The shows are really not rehearsed, they’re really organic. I hate that word, but it’s up for what the crowd likes. I know what the crowd is gonna be like. I’m gonna go out, get drunk, and have a good time.
What’s pissing you off the world today?
There’s a lot that’s pissing me off, it’s a lot. The world isn’t perfect. There’s a lot of stuff that’s out of control, and no amount of protesting or crying is gonna change it, so I try to stay out of that headspace. I know it sounds selfish, but especially in America, things are gonna stay fucked up forever.
I wou;dn’t call myself optimistic, everything in my life I work at getting. I’m not really a dreamer. If it’s going to happen, it’s going to happen.
You’ve said it’s important for you to stay true to yourself. Do you have a message for people that can’t do that?
It’s just the whole thing you’re going to die. That’s been my thing, I’ve felt this romantically even socially a lot of people dying when they’re not living their truth. I’m the type of personality where I’m always myself, I know a lot of people are attracted to that – people who can’t do that. I just think, you’re going to die. You don’t know when you’re going to die, you might as well just live your life.
You don’t want to be that old gay guy, with a kid, on a deathbed who didn’t have that chance to suck as much dick as he could. You know what I’m saying? That’s just not cute.
So is that what your music is about, suck as much dick as you can?
Some music of mine is about that. Some of it it suck as much dick as you can, but it’s also do what you want as much as you want to do it. It’s basically that. It’s not like I’m trying to put it into my music, it’s just my personality. I’m gonna talk about what I talk about, I’m just going to do what I’m going to do.
I’m working on a new album, I can’t wait to come back to London, I can’t wait to tour.
Cakes Da Killa is performing on 22 April At Birthdays in Dalston, London. He is also performing in Paris, Amsterdam, Essen and Berlin. Find out more here.